Lately I have been living in the tension of the “in-betweens.” I don’t know if anyone else feels like this, but the past three months have held a lot of energy shifting and transitions in my life and many people’s lives around me. I know it’s ok to at once hold a space of support and understanding for people’s decisions, while at the same time feel vulnerable and even envious. It’s honest.

I feel so fortunate in a lot of ways. For the family I was raised in, for the opportunities I have been presented.

Today we embark on a 10 day journey into Wabakimi Provincial Park. A wilderness canoe-camping trip. It, perhaps, comes at a good time. A time to pause, a cleanse from the extraordinary busyness that has claimed this summer.

I know that the trip, too, will be a time of in-betweens. The excitement and adrenaline of paddling to the next destination, met with the fear of the unknown. Being with the land I am so disconnected with and yet learn to rekindle that connection. Sewing together the fragments of that lost knowledge in my ancestral memory.

I don’t know why it is that I fear so much going into the bush, and yet I crave it all the same. Maybe it just makes me feel alive. Why else do we live but to ride that line?

It’s worth the risk.

It’s a time, not to conquer your shortcomings, but to notice them, learn from them, be with them.

Here are some photos of the food I have been dehydrating to prep for the trip. I love trip prepping, I geek out on it! Dehydrating saves space and weight, and money! I’ll have to figure out a better storage method other than ziplocs for future trips.

Wishing everyone the best!